I am a graduate in IT and working in a reputed IT company. Sometimes, I wonder what am I doing and why am I doing this. Did I really want to do this in my life? Will my life ever change? Will I ever have something in my life that can give me peace? Will I ever have that moment when I won’t think of running and hiding? Will the silent cries ever stop originating from my mind?
When I was in college in my final year, I wanted that year not to end. Just wanted the time to stop. I didn’t want to join some IT company and do some work I didn’t like. Because in those 4 years I realized I was not made for this stream(IT). Then you will ask why did you choose IT then and I think why did I choose even engineering. Was it really my choice? Was this the aim I really wanted to achieve? I wonder on the answer and from every corner I get a reply—No you idiot, you surely didn’t want to be an engineer. Engineering was really my parent’s choice. But I don’t blame them. They wanted the best for me.
Well then I wonder how did Gandhi know that he was a freedom fighter material, how did RATAN TATA know that he was a business material, How did Sachin know that he was a sport material. I don’t think they really know what their true potential was? Nobody can. How at the age of 16 you can know. You just know what you like doing. But then how??? They must have an angel in their life, who showed them the path to follow and I wonder why was that angel missing from my life.
I don’t want to continue. I want to run away. I want to run till I reach my school days. Nothing to worry about. Just do what you want to do,go wherever you want to go, play till you get tired and in night dream about the sweet stories you read in daytime.
Then I want to wait for my angel to come to rescue me from my old life.
Will that angel ever come?
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