First of all, this post is not for those people who intend to aim for IIM’s or those who scroll down quickly to see, which college I finally converted.
All it started from :–
I am pass out of 2011 batch (B.E.). I was placed in TCS (along with my entire batch of college). I was enjoying, waiting for my joining to come. On 14th June, during last day of college, all of my batch-mates got their joining (except ME ) I waited for around two months (till my class mates got their salary twice ). Day by day i went into frustration and feeling of ‘MAY be TCS would cheat me’ .
August end 2011, I decided to give CAT casually, enrolled for TIME Indore (I am from Ujjain, so I had to travel 60 Km for each AIMCAT during those days).
1209 was my first Aimcat without any preparation and I got 89.6%ile. I was happy in that… 20 days till 1205, I studied like hell. Then I got TCS joining and again mauj masti started. Left studies. Went to TCS Hyderabad training center. Given CAT 2011 in Time pass.
Result : QA :98.6, VA :65.xx (OA :95.xx).
2012: I came to Mumbai, I was okay with my project. Till March got feeling TCS may be not suitable for me in long run. Mind again switched to CAT. Enrolled TIME Borivali classes. (This was the first time ever I joined any coaching or tuition in my life)
Those Aimcats came very dicey for me. For QA it was okay, but VA got 56%ile in 1320. I started working on VA. But still I was struggling with 60-80% zone. I still remember, it was 1313 where I got 95.xx in VA (without any help of LR ? ). A feeling of confidence generated inside me.
But what I felt now onward, QA slowly started going on declining side. Also I guess TIME Aimcats were always on same pattern, and I really took TIME AIMCATS for GRANTED. Went into high spirits. I was very much sure that this time I will really nail it and will go to top college. I went into overconfidence.
CAT2012 :Result (A disaster :Do not want to mention it)
Also my performance at office affected, Got the least rating, Break up, Rejection, all things came together like if god is punishing me for some crime. I went into depression. I went like a kite whose regulating knot gone. I decided to leave my job , leave Mumbai, bleakness had just engulfed me.
Finally decided, either I will stay depressed or move out and find out better ways to find my own self.
I started reading. Animal farm was the first book during that season I read, I don’t know what happened to me but then I felt, I guess it is reading which could pacify or calm my mind (From that date of last march, till now I almost read more than 30+ books ).
I also started teaching poor children, got opportunity from TCS LFT (Little Flower Trust) group. When I saw them I got feeling that I am very blessed that god has given such a beautiful life to me.
I also started watching plays at Prithvi theater, with 4 friends we all started discussing GK at CCD. NOT for exam purpose, but for knowledge purpose.
Along with it I started enjoying my work as well.
Slowly I released that I started enjoying my life. Enrolled only for CL, was NOT serious this time .
Given all PG mocks (I was in decent zone of 85-95 %ile ).
What I realized this year was that I am not typical made for IIM’s and all. May be colleges like IRMA, MICA, TISS is more inclined towards my interest. I realized that I am not into mainstream. (I am into other things as film making during college, story writing, teaching children etc. were my passion)
So CAT was just a formality. But IRMA shocked me that 80% CAT score will be considered.
So worked little on CAT :
My CAT 2013 CAT experience :
It went BAD.
CAT 2013 result : 95 %ile with 90+ in both section. (and I thought I was expecting 40-50 %ile ) .
Then came TISS : Given.
MICA: (Yes, here it came for me it is my DREAM college. Those who know me personally, they always say that I am perfect MICA material ). Did not even sleep one night before exam, not even for a single second, went five times to wash my face during exam.
IRMA :Given .
Rest colleges I did not care.
GOT all THREE CALLS. ( ? )
But for me MICA was real obsession (I cried a lot when in 2012 I was rejected). I knew what I have to do.
First TISS interview came. It was okay. I was also not in full mood. REJECTED
It was during this first interview where I realized about my pros and cons, I am a bakar express kind of a person and I was trying to be intelligent.
I decided, even if I am DUMB, I will remain that, next was MICA my dream. Any wrong move, it could lead me. No! ).
There were things asked in MICA form “likes and dislikes”.
People said you should lie a little bit, make your form marketing related, IMPRESSIVE.
I did not listen to them.
I wrote books, street dogs, Ayushman Hhurana. (As my role model, please don’t take it otherwise)
I read 5 books on Brand Management. Researched on every nook of my life, my belongings, and communication industry.
My interview went super awesome. I was told to make a movie on UJJAIN. I made entire script in front of interview panel— Mohan jodaro— Ashoka— Vikramaditya— Samudragupta— Ittutmish— Scidia— Kumbha mela— Mahakaal temple— 23 and half degree tropic of cancer. Entire history of Ujjain in chronological order. Named it as ‘Itihaas Ka Mahanagar- Ujjain’.
Kalidasa— Abhigyanshakuntalam— Meghdootam. Everything they asked I knew.
They asked how many languages I know. I said ‘give me any indian language I can sing a song’. Tamil, Kannad, Malayam, Gujrati etc. They got puzzled and said god forgot to put stop button in my tape recoder. Offered me tea and biscuits.
Awesome 30 Minutes of life. The moment I came I knew I have done it this time.
When result came. 1st spot offer name. I was there. I Nailed it finally MICA MY DREAM.
Then IRMA came : I was original : Converted.
Then Big Trouble came : College fee.
My personal life: I have huge communication gap with my parents and not good terms with them (Very bad terms )… After 10th.. DID NOT HAVE A PROPER TALK WITH THEM… They do not know much about my padhai likhaai… typical business dhande waali family… They don’t know MICA, IIM, IIT… for them dukaandaari is best option… It’s not financial but they are not much into supporting education. Business is of primary importance in their world. May be it sound strange to you. They wanted to drag me into business and I retaliated… Long back fight happened… Result :Bleak relations… So bank wanted a coborrower for which I did not get much support… and fear of losing MICA again emerged.
I did not find any person as guarantee. From 12th April to 5th May was most painful days of my life. I ran everywhere. Nothing worked. Finally HDFC credilla also refused me on account of Co-borrower. Finally, I typed this letter to MICA :
Dear MICA Team,
Today is 5th May 2014, I was told by MICA representative regarding my last mail that as I got an spot offer and I was not informed prior about deduction of 25,000/- . So I will be given full 50,000 If I cancel my admission before 6th May 2014.
I tried everything, but finally failed in this task. Today, Bank rejected my loan request on account of poor co-borrower profile.
MICA is my dream college and it will always remain as my dream. When I came there for interview I took some MICA soil with me. I will preserve it forever along with me .
I have one REQUEST to MICA, please, if possible for authorities to provide me a MICA T-shirt. I am not okay and it is painful for me to leave MICA due to such reason. But if it is possible, please send me a MICA T-shirt, so that I will always preserve it as a memento from MICA. That day of 9th April will always remain alive in my memory. Even if some charge would deduct for it I am okay with it. (My T-shirt size is medium)
One thing which I want to share is that whether I gained anything or not, but one thing for sure. MICA gave me confidence in my life, that I can do anything now.
MICA is great college and It will always remain.
Now, with silent weight on my heart, I would like to say please treat this mail as cancellation of my admission from MICA.
My bank details for amount transfer are as follows :–
Name :Ravi Gangani
IFSC code: CITI0000006
Account number :- XXXXXXXXX.
and I lost MICA when I received their cancellation confirm.
But this time I am not shattered, infact I am happy, MAY BE GOD HAS BETTER FOR ME AHEAD, I REALLY BELIEVE .
In fact I have seen many people who left their journey in between due to failure in exam or interview. At least I was among those fortunate ones who CONVERTED their dream. I am really proud of fact that till 10th I was not even able to read English (I am from typical GOVT. HINDI MEDIUM SCHOOL ) and I converted (Spot offer – flaunt ? )the best college of communication in INDIA. It is due to other reasons I have to leave it.
IRMA: A highly respectable college, but will not join it, as I feel I am not fit for it.
VERDICT : I WILL REMAIN WITH TCS. (Yes, I got here good ratings and opportunities as well, my project team is like home to me .)
Life is how you see it, if you see it positively even little happiness brim you with satisfaction. But if you see it negetive then even kings throne will look very bleak.
I am very happy with my life. Don’t know what to do next. I am not in mood of giving any exam now just enjoying and yes my days do not mere pass by or drag off, they are dancing on their feet.
Good luck to all for your journey. Only mantra for success .
BE ORIGINAL AND INSANELY DIFFERENT .