05-01-2014: It is an end to the XL dream this year. A dream of becoming an XLer just got shattered. Ya, but was I not knowing this from last few weeks? Was I not knowing that I have not prepared to the mark after CAT?(or as I try to persuade myself: grip chali gai he yaar/ab na ho paega).

Even after knowing all this, why am I feeling bad seeing my score. Why am I not able to embrace this failure, learn from it and move ahead? When I give it a thought, I think I still was having hope, hoping for some chamatkar to happen. Eh, how did I forget “Miracles come after a lot of hard work.” And I just missed the latter part it seems.

Does that mean the main reason behind everyone’s stress, over-stress or distress is hope? Not exactly. If there is one thing I can pass on from my humbling experiences in life, thus far, I will tell you this, the next time someone tells you the absence of hopes is the absence of disappointment, do not listen. Have hopes. Keep them great. It’ll be a very bumpy ride. You’ll even get bruised, sometimes very badly. Sometimes, you’ll come to an abrupt halt or even fall off your ride. But you’ll grow( at least that is what I feel). And if you do not grow, you do not live.

Sharing what you feel, makes you feel good. Is this helping me right now? Yes, it definitely is. Now, what will be my future course of actions? Well, I don’t know. May be will chill out for a couple of days and gear up for GD-PI( hoping that I get shortlisted at least in some good b-school ? ). The hope still prevails.

I would like to sum it up quoting Ralph Aldo Emerson. This is for all you PUYs feeling low after XAT.

Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail.”

Hope to recover soon.

Keep PUYing. ?